You spent 60.000€ on some worthless whores? Why? Did you not feel pathetic having to pay for what should be free? How could you earn so much money in such short time anyways? For 60.000$ you could have a small house in some 2nd world European country.
Yes brother, I've spent even more on whores. I repeat, it's generally not worth it. But there are some of those moments that are worth it. Some of those escorts were really really fucking hot, and there was some chemistry with, and I kept seeing them and had wonderful sex with them.
Also, I've learned some extremely advanced sex, like body language reading, feeling what the girl is feeling, I believe it did increase my empathy. I learned a lot about women and how they tick, in bed at least.
But is it worth 70-80k?? FUck no brother, it's not.
In my defense, I had gotten a job which was payign me 6000euros a month, and it lasted 3 years, so that was enough to make me go batshit crazy, I didn't even know what the fuck to do with money at the time, I was so fucking naive.
I couldn't understand the worth of money, or the worth of having a nice car or what you could have done with that shit. I just wanted to bang, and honestly I still want to, I want to be a slayer like I wanted.
The frustration of not getting civilians bcs of being isolated socially had found the outlet in whores, and I don't know if I could have coped in other more healthy ways without feeling like a huge nerd loser tbh.
But the thing remains, I lacked faith... and I paid the price...
The pigs of today are the ham of tomorrow, brother